Sex and Sexuality -Bonus-Excerpt from Fornakopia

As I was contemplating about the premise for my book, Fornakopia, I wanted to focus on a mature woman's sexual life and the connection between sex and spirituality as the driving points of the story.

I talked to several older women about their sexual lives. The discussion wasn't a scientific study but to gather information to shape my protagonist's character. Several important things surfaced in the discussion. The women talked about sexual suppression. While growing up, they weren't allowed to ask questions or discuss sex within the family or with others, resulting in feelings of guilt, shame, and emotional abandonment. These negative feelings affected their sexual performance and enjoyment. Suppression could go even deep if physical abuse or rape occurred.

The discussion also centered on the age of their first sexual encounter and did they know what to expect. Many said no. They were in their teens or early twenties and were clueless, and so were their partners. I asked if they enjoyed sex in their younger years. They responded if they were in a loving relationship sex was good. All agreed sex got better as they aged.

My last question to this esteemed group of women- do you have orgasms?  Some did, and others didn't, or they faked it. But no one talked about the god-orgasm-when spiritual and sexual energies connect to create bliss and enlightenment.

 Spiritual teacher, healer, and author Dr. Deepak Chopra describes it as, "when somebody experiences intimacy and reaches orgasm, we feel vulnerable, intimate, we are defenseless, spontaneous, joyful, carefree and there is a sense of timelessness. These are the characteristics and true nature of our spirit.  Spontaneous, joyful, carefree and there is a sense of timelessness. Living your life with this level of intimacy would allow to emerge the evolutionary impulse, the creative energy of the universe which is your spirit."   

From those conversations, research and my creative mind, I created Annaliza Wentworth, the protagonist of Fornakopia. She is a rich, matured, widow who lives a passionless life. She spends her time daydreaming about having a steamy, sensual relationship, something she always wanted. Psychological trauma, spiritual suppression, and sexual fantasies are all significant parts of Annaliza's character, making for a sensual, suspenseful, romantic novel.

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Preview

Chapter 1

Damn, I said silently, and seconds later pinched myself to make sure that I was fully awake and not dreaming. What just happened was for real. Then I thought of the song-At Last.  I don’t know if I have found love, but I do know that at last, I had my first orgasm at the age sixty.

I turned my head to look at the man who had helped to make this magnificent sensation happen to me.  He was lying on top of the sheets, his legs crossed, and his arms clasped around the back of his head. I glanced at his manhood that I had just ridden to heaven and back.

"You're thinking too much," he said as his olive-black eyes looked intensively at me as if he were looking into my soul.

I shivered, "Am I?”

“Come here screamer,” he said, wrapping his arms around me.  "I like it. You're going to get tired of screaming," He gently kissed my forehead, cheeks, lips, and neck.

” Screaming?”

"Yes, my darling lady, your scream told me everything,” he whispered in my ear and then nibbled at my earlobe.

“Oh, you’re a Scream Interpreter. Please sir, share with me what my scream told you,” I teased him as I ran my fingers over one of the long scars on his chest.

 “It was a primordial scream that came from deep within your soul, not holding back anything. You had an insane god-orgasm. And sometimes that's all you need."

Yes, that was it, I thought. I had just had an incredible orgasm that made me see stars and feel wonderfully feral. This sensation had alluded me all of my adult life.  Now I was where I wanted to be.  But it hadn’t always been this way. Months ago, my world was full of grief, boredom, and routine.

Then life events happened that made me dig deep inside of me to survive this chaotic world.

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Three Months Earlier